First and foremost, I have come a long way. I am not here to be all long winded – because when it comes to blogging I am a woman of few words. Even after losing 30 lbs, I find myself relapsing back into old ways sometimes. For example, Halloween candy, from day to day I eat none of this because as I experienced this weekend, I cannot eat solely 1-2 pieces but more like 10-15 at a time. Outrageous I know, but I have a theory that refined sugar makes one absolutely crazy. So, in addition to the workouts I have now learned to love, I will be keeping a photo food diary to hold myself completely accountable. For me, it really isn’t about “skinny.” More like cancer free, diabetes free, etc. I want to set myself up for future success starting now. Life is way more difficult when you have to be fighting yourself in the kitchen. Believe me. Been there, done that. Food addiction and other eating disorders are a real & ugly thing. I would know fighting food addiction head on now for several years. It’s all about developing a healthy… BALANCE. That word is everywhere, yet as a society we are raised to believe in the only way to do something is through extremes. This project is about me. Maybe no one will read, or maybe it will inspire some along the way. Xoxox N
– incorporate working out into my everyday or every other day life/// move more, make a swift return back to the gym
– lose another 10 lbs
– make healthy decisions, & some times have some leeway
– organize closet & bedroom.. continued
– submit photos! (By Oct 15)
– reconnect w friends
– finish May Cause Miracles
– write daily
– take things one day at a time
What are your plans?
First off, I have lost 30 lbs! I know what your thinking.. Scales can’t measure kindness, how clean your car is, or even cellulite between your thighs, but this is steps in the right direction people! I have gone down significantly in BMI from a starting point of 31.9 (obese) to 27.8 (now just “overweight”). Weight wise I am half way to my goal weight which has been determined by being in the “normal” BMI section for being 5’11.
If I can give anyone advice it is to truly start eating better. 90% of this weight loss is due to a mound of raw fruits & vegetables, Ezekiel bread, nuts, the occasional bit of lean meat.. Love yourself enough to make these things start tasting good. They make a world of a difference to one’s appearance & overall feeling. Cravings for chocolate have completely diminished aside from the occasional ice cream replaced with a strong love for garlic.
The struggle is real but it is so worth it. This is no thinspo blog. This is real life and I want to continue to improve the quality of my life.
For me, cleaning up my diet is seriously easier than “working out.” I walk a lot, floated around in a pool a bunch this summer. However, I want to learn to love fitness again. Some loves need to be reignited and this one is it. With a combination of healthy eating & movement.. I am determined to be at my goal of 170 by the end of the year, December 31st.
Feel free to share your journey with me, as I continue to share mine.
Lots of love
Photo credit: pinterest
Lately I have been restless.
It’s difficult to pinpoint exactly where this feeling stems from, but I have a pretty good idea. It’s the seasonal transition. Out with the carefree, breezy summer, in with autumn – beautiful and academic. It brings in a sense of knowing what you want and getting it. For some of you, this is running to your local Starbucks and getting your pumpkin spice latte. I get it.
For others, this aforementioned sense leaves you puzzled and frowning. What am I doing? Where am I going? Will I ever get there? What if I make a mistake? I get it. For the first time I am out of college and I have no idea what I’m doing and it is both exciting and scary, empowering and belittling. The world in my hands, but where does one begin? Despite the existential dilemma I have been trying to find daily reminders of peace and reminding myself to be gentle with myself. Things of this proportion do not need to be figured out immediately, but rather will reveal themselves in time.
“Dear normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you in quest for a more rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I can, for it may not always be so. One day I will dig my nails into the earth, or bury my head into a pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want more than all the world, your return”
Often I must remind myself “Natalia, do not sweat the small stuff.” Being very sensitive, I have easily been guilted, upset, and sometimes even taken advantage of.. But this is no more. I must learn to stand up for myself. I must learn to seek criticism and not fear it, like I often am guilty of doing. If I stop taking everything so personally, I may realize that certain comments can actually be used to propel us in a better direction. From day to day, I chose to release the worry from my heart and give it up to God; one bit at a time. I truly believe that I will be guided to the path I am meant to be on. I choose to trust and let go, even in the uncertainty.. Xo N
So I think like 1-2 posts that I loved accidentally got deleted. I just want to clarify with myself & anyone else reading this that I am not perfect. I stray from my initial goals and challenges sometimes, but the most important part for me is to keep going, to persevere, to establish better habits.
Yesterday I had a bit of a cheat day, that is if you think 3 corn dogs & an ice cream cone “a little bit” of a cheat day. It was a bit of a disaster but I got it out of my system & now I can continue onward. Besides healthy eating I need to get this body moving again. What exercises do you do & consider fun? This summer I’ve been “swimming” and walking some, but as they say abs are really made in the kitchen & I can definitely attest to that statement. That’s more or less how I’ve lost nearly 30 lbs now. I used to be big into running, doing cross country for 7 years but I kinda fell out of all healthy practices during my intense college studies. Now that that’s done I want to refocus on myself & focus on the new changes, like the quote above mentions. That’s all for now. Two more shifts until I have a beautiful weekend w my family & love.